soul_campaign | 001 ♒ Text [March 12th]

wwhale its pretty fuckin obvvious wwhats goin on around here
breww clearly understands wworth when it seas it
evven if its made a feww fuckin mistakes along the wway its at least done somethin right finally
an ill havve you all fuckin knoww you should be grateful that im wwillin to help if any a you wweapons are powwerful enough an fuckin wworthy enough to be wwielded by me
for the sake a bein generous im wwillin to evven ovverlook all a your inferiority and subject myself to minglin wwith humans to get this shit done
lookin for a powwerful long ranged wweapon wwho wwants to be paired wwith the soon to be best fuckin meister in this entire fuckin city
an speakin a this fuckin place
noww im not usually one to complain but wwhy the FUCK are wwe in a desert
wwhat kind a masochistic douchebags actually build a city in a cod forsaken place like this
i can almost already feel my fuckin gills dryin out as wwe speak
if i die like some pathetic beached wwhale theres gonna be fuckin hell to pay
an wwhat the fuck is wwith these cheap livvin arrangements
youd think a city beggin for help wwould at least givve some fuckin decent accommodations to its fuckin savviors
but i suppose i can ovverlook that for noww
after all when dealin wwith so many loww class ingrates its not alwways easy to pinpoint the more wworthy ones
an speakin a loww class
...
evveryone wwho gets dragged here has their wweapons taken awway from them right
say if someone had a fuckin chainsaww disguised as somethin totally innocent
it wwould still be taken awway from them wwouldnt it
cause otherwwise fuck you shibusen for not doin your fuckin job a keepin the peace
an wwhat about freaky fuckin psychic powwers
does anyone get to keep those for wwhatevver reason
...
...
an those a you from my timeline
im not apologizin so dont fuckin ask me to
it wwasnt my fault

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...An' wwhat if I said I didn't think there wwere any ties to begin wwith? No one liked me, no one ewen wisited me on my planet in the game. No one wwanted to deal wwith me or put up wwith me or anythin'. That's wwhy I don't see the point in it. Not like it wwould make a difference no matter howw I felt about it.

I don't believe that it's entirely the truth, Eridan. Have you approached them on the matter with an open mind?

Not evveryone is like you Sign. They wwouldn't fuckin' care.

I know of at least one that might.

Wwho?

I think you should find out for yourself.

I think you're lyin' to make me feel better.

I don't lie, Eridan.

...Somehoww, I can fuckin' beliewe that comin' from you. But that doesn't mean I'm fully conwinced you're just not mistaken here.

There are times that I might be wrong. However, in this? I know that I am not.

[It takes him a few minutes to answer this time, distracted with something else, but when he does finally his face is buried in his mini pile of pillows and he just hates the fucking world.]

...Good newws is the crazy indigo is still my friend. Bads newws is Kar wwants nothin' to fuckin' do wwith me an' Sol threatened me to stay awway from you.

I have a distinct feeling none of you know how to temper your words.

Karkat, rest assured, has his own issues to contend with. Things that he is still struggling with. He cares, Eridan. The issue is that he struggles the same as you, in some respects: a struggle to earn respect the only way a troll knows how and yet a certain compassion that is seen as unnatural. He lashes out the same way you do, to protect himself.

Be patient. He will not truly give up on you. Though this journey is a two way street. Unfortunately, Eridan, if you want friends, you have to be willing to listen and attempt to put yourself in their shoes. True friendship and comradely is not about what they can do for you. It's about what you can do for each other.

Now, as for Sollux... He is under my care and I can understand his resentment. Though you do not need to avoid me. After all, I am an adult and am perfectly capable of making my own choices.

I told Kar he doesn't hawe to fuckin' deal wwith me anymore. He says wwe're not friends an' then tries to pull that leader responsibility bullshit wwith me. I'm sick a people pretendin' to care wwhen they don't. He says it's cause a the shit I did but he's fuckin' moirails with the other murderous asshole an' it's just not fair.

An' I had no fuckin' intentions a listenin' to Sol, but I did tell him I wwouldn't seek out your hiwe since he's there.

Eridan, this is the listening part you should learn to start practicing. You know your history, so let's use it this way:

How many generals have you read about that took a personal responsibility for the welfare of those they commanded?

...All a them. The good ones at least wwho wweren't total fuckin' pricks.

[Dammit Sign, stop bringing your logic into this.]

Why do you think that is?

Cause if you wwanna wwin a wwar, you need your soldiers in one piece.

Now think of Karkat. Naturally he would want this, as a leader, but you know him personally. Why would he still believe you to be his responsibility even though he believes everything to be all for naught?

Cause he's under the fuckin' impression that ewerythin' in the uniwerse is his responsibility ewen wwhen it's not.

Again, why would he?

cause he cares too fuckin much about provvin himself wwhen he doesnt havve to
but a leaders no fuckin good to me
i dont wwant one right noww an thats all kar sees himself as

[ good. good. ]

Eridan, have you told Karkat he doesn't need to prove himself?

Just as you cling to your ancestor as a means to identify yourself, the leadership role is all Karkat knows. Thus he clings to it just as desperately as you have to what you wanted to be. They are merely crutches for you both to cling to in order to hide your insecurities about who you are.

The twelve of you are all that each other have. What good is it to appear strong? To appear better than one another? It's not just you that needs to learn this lesson, Eridan Ampora.

[He peeks out of his pillow pile for this, glasses askew and maybe just a tiny bit of hope there that his new plan might work.]

This might be kind a wweird to say but I can see wwhy they wwanted to get rid of you. You'we got some powwerful fuckin' wwords there Sign.

I'm going to take that as a complement.

Wwell good cause it wwas meant as one. You're fuckin' unreal an' amazin' an' I'm still hawin' trouble beliewin' that this isn't all some fucked up dream.

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