soul_campaign | [ v i d e o ] ☠ march 19

Greetings, everyone. I know most of you who went out to help with yesterday's mission are tired and recovering from your injuries, but this mission was a success. The team was able to dismantle and bring back the Madness Emitter and it is currently under study by research teams formed by both our own Shibusen staff and a group of guests who have agreed to help.

There are two Madness Emitters left so the levels are still abnormally high. However we can already see a decrease in levels, further proving that taking down these emitters is key if we want to regain an advantage and move to a more offensive position.

Those emitters won't be going anywhere, and everyone needs time to recover—especially since the areas have been noted to be more dangerous than this one. Thus the next mission won't be until around next week.

In the meantime, however, for those interested we will be conducting training lessons to help resist the Madness. A week is obviously not going to make you invulnerable, but every bit will be to your advantage. Even those who do not plan on fighting should at least consider participating in one or two to at least understand more how the Madness affects you. A schedule of the training sessions will be posted for everyone to sign up.

More details will be provided later. For now, rest up.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I didn't go in with anyone, but-- [She hesitates.] I was told Zidane helped me out of there.

I don't remember it, though.

Hm...I'd have to look at the report. But not recalling things can happen as usually once you're infected you're basically out of your mind.

You know, hearing that I was just doesn't make me feel any better.

There's no real way to put it in a more...palatable manner. But knowing the truth about it is really better so you can have a better understanding.

I guess. So, will having gone through such a thing help me handle it better next time?

In some ways. At the very least you know one way you react to the Madness and can prepare for it.

Whatever it is you saw that time is fueled by your own fear and that is what the Madness brought out. You're going to have to either overcome or face that fear if you want to fully defend yourself.

That's just it. I thought--

I thought I had faced it!

[The idea that it could be related to being in such a strange situation reminiscent of that time hasn't occurred to her.]

[...hum.]

Perhaps you had, but not entirely. Which is not unusual. But there may be something else that you haven't come to terms yet.

Like what?

I don't want to fall apart because of this thing just when people need me the most.

[A hint?]

Edited 2012-09-17 05:25 (UTC)

Unfortunately that's something you'll have to figure out yourself since I don't know everything about what happened to you...but whatever you thought of back then will be the key. If it wasn't the event itself, it could be something else related to it.

I can't remember what I was thinking then-- [She pauses.]

You're referring to what originally happened, aren't you? [Her brow furrows as she thinks about it. She can't still feel that guilty about it, can she?]

Yes. It all likely stems from that incident, and as I said there may be more to it than you originally thought.

[it's almost like a psychological counseling session.]

Well, there were two, actually. They got mixed together when I fell into the zone.

[Yes, similar incidents, similar memories.]

It could be both or just one...[musing.]

If you go through this training exercise, it would be prudent if you could try and recognize which one had the most impact on you.

Would going through the training help me with that?

[Both were pretty traumatic, so it was kind of hard to figure it out herself.]

Yes, but only if you're up to it.

[otherwise maybe she should see an actual counselor...]

I think I am.

[Despite her choice of words, her tone was one of confidence--that she actually felt.]

Then I suggest doing so with at least one other person. If not an actual partner, then at least someone you trust.

[She's nodding even before he finishes.]

Yeah. I think I will, and I think I know who I'll ask.

Then I wish you luck and hope for the best. If you have any more problems, you are more than welcome to contact me.

All right, Kid. I will.

[She says that, but she hardly ever does.]

Thanks.

[it's cool—so long as she knows he's available. for help. for help.]

No problem.

[She knows. Besides, there's someone else she likes.]

Talk to you later.

*END*

[ooc: LMAO. Blair would be so disappointed. :D]

[ooc: ROTFLMAO I didn't mean to insinuate anything but the moment I wrote "he's available" my mind just went there so I couldn't resist XD]

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