[If Near were anyone else, he’d feel sheepish or apologetic at being caught out. But he has never tried to keep his manipulations hidden, and he knew Genesis would figure things out sooner or later.]
Only a few times before. Mello has always been terribly jealous whenever you were around, so I didn’t even have to do anything to provoke him: your presence was all it took.
[This time, he frowns in confusion after Genesis makes his question, and his eyes never leave the card he is still holding, as Near thinks things over in his mind.
The Lover's card is about harmony. Thus, it is about something that speaks to you, that you know and recognize as your other or mirror self, and which makes you feel harmonically balanced or complete.
In interpretation, the card indicates that the querent has come across, or will come across something or someone that they will fall in love with, romantically or not. They will know instinctively that it was meant for them, even if it means diverging from their chosen path. On the other hand, their common sense must also make a decision on whether or not to go along with this unconscious "choice." There is often a measure of hardship or cost that comes with giving into this attraction.
Two choices are involved with the card. First, your soul or psyche is making its choice. It recognizes this other person/thing as being your spiritual twin or as harmonizing with you; you become amorous for it.
Now the rest of you, the demands of your life, heart, or mind, can agree or not. That's the other choice. You will feel powerfully drawn to this person or thing so much so that, no matter how scary, how difficult, irrational or troublesome, you will be inclined to go for it. But you will also know that it comes at a cost. Maybe the person/thing you’re attracted to means trouble, or maybe this thing/person is just inconvenient.
You might think its madness to change your life or break with your principles or goals in order to have this. Coming after the Emperor with his imperial rules, and after the Hierophant with his communal faith, The Lovers acknowledges a spiritual power that often defies earthly laws and religious traditions. Obeying this urge can be foolish, dangerous, selfish, thoughtless, earth-shattering.
Yet you can say "no" to this attraction. You do have that choice. If, however, you don't allow yourself to try and make this person or thing a part of your life, you may regret it, profoundly and forever.
Near places the card on the table once more, and picks a different one to add to his card castle.
Does he enjoy that gentleness? No, not when it happens during their games. He didn’t mind holding Mello’s hand when they walked through the graveyard in Ljubljana; he even liked the connection, in a way. But Mello being gentle as they challenge each other makes him feel confused, trapped, and like what he’s doing is wrong.
And the most terrifying thing is how it reminds him of something he stumbled upon in Mello’s mind, something deep and scary and far too strong for him to handle. Something that would, without a doubt, shatter the foundations they stand on, and most likely fuck things up for good.
Near takes even longer to answer Genesis question, this time.]
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Only a few times before. Mello has always been terribly jealous whenever you were around, so I didn’t even have to do anything to provoke him: your presence was all it took.
[This time, he frowns in confusion after Genesis makes his question, and his eyes never leave the card he is still holding, as Near thinks things over in his mind.
The Lover's card is about harmony. Thus, it is about something that speaks to you, that you know and recognize as your other or mirror self, and which makes you feel harmonically balanced or complete.
In interpretation, the card indicates that the querent has come across, or will come across something or someone that they will fall in love with, romantically or not. They will know instinctively that it was meant for them, even if it means diverging from their chosen path. On the other hand, their common sense must also make a decision on whether or not to go along with this unconscious "choice." There is often a measure of hardship or cost that comes with giving into this attraction.
Two choices are involved with the card. First, your soul or psyche is making its choice. It recognizes this other person/thing as being your spiritual twin or as harmonizing with you; you become amorous for it.
Now the rest of you, the demands of your life, heart, or mind, can agree or not. That's the other choice. You will feel powerfully drawn to this person or thing so much so that, no matter how scary, how difficult, irrational or troublesome, you will be inclined to go for it. But you will also know that it comes at a cost. Maybe the person/thing you’re attracted to means trouble, or maybe this thing/person is just inconvenient.
You might think its madness to change your life or break with your principles or goals in order to have this. Coming after the Emperor with his imperial rules, and after the Hierophant with his communal faith, The Lovers acknowledges a spiritual power that often defies earthly laws and religious traditions. Obeying this urge can be foolish, dangerous, selfish, thoughtless, earth-shattering.
Yet you can say "no" to this attraction. You do have that choice. If, however, you don't allow yourself to try and make this person or thing a part of your life, you may regret it, profoundly and forever.
Near places the card on the table once more, and picks a different one to add to his card castle.
Does he enjoy that gentleness? No, not when it happens during their games. He didn’t mind holding Mello’s hand when they walked through the graveyard in Ljubljana; he even liked the connection, in a way. But Mello being gentle as they challenge each other makes him feel confused, trapped, and like what he’s doing is wrong.
And the most terrifying thing is how it reminds him of something he stumbled upon in Mello’s mind, something deep and scary and far too strong for him to handle. Something that would, without a doubt, shatter the foundations they stand on, and most likely fuck things up for good.
Near takes even longer to answer Genesis question, this time.]
No. They confuse me, and I don’t know why.