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soul_campaign2013-04-14 01:07 am
darkestshadeofyou) wrote in soul_campaign2013-04-14 01:07 am
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[Video] - Stuck in a Jam-Jar [May 19?]
((OOC At the top just to preempt anyone possibly not having read the cut -- This post its full of spoilers and violent things that happened in the canon. I really can't warn enough ;-;))
[This video starts out in a dark, dark room and only the light of the night time does any decent for any sort of outline sitting at the window. It's clearly a man in a white shirt, the pants are too dark to make out any definitive colour past a shade of blue. He's made a small modification to be able to sit at the window and it's not clear what it is he's seated on, but his blankets are there and his pillows. He's drug his mattress and his table to the window.]
I had a nightmare for the fourth time since being here. Are they common? Wasn't it something I heard at one time that said talking about your nightmares would make them go away? Unfortunately there'll be graphic content, you should stray away if you have stomachs not suited to violence.
It made me sick, too.
[He means this in the double standard for those who know, for those who don't can assume what they will while they don't know he is sick in other ways. His finger comes to his lip and he nibbles at the skin on the side of it. It's a wonder he hasn't chewed clear through it for all the times he's done it.]
I tried so hard to wake up from it, a nightmare so real it could be life if not for the characteristic surreal settings that dreams tend to bring us. There was a tall cinder building in England, a gated fence surrounded it and its tower. All of us were children, nameless, faceless children in the crowds, given nothing more than what would be afforded an orphanage. Maybe that was what it was, in fact, an orphanage. What a strange dream to have.
That orphanage went on forever, large halls of oak and laminate as so the children's shoes dare not make a mark in the halls. Not make a mark at all in the life of the building. A young man I could only imagine the dream's reel to set as my friend sat down next to me in a large library lined with books -- so many books
[He's reaching down to the blankets, pulling them further around him and a pillow against the window to lean his head on.]
We were studying for something that felt more ominous than one single child should ever have to go through. The gaunt features on the face of the young man -- the only one with another face -- were a disturbing sight. Something I don't think I'll forget even if the nightmare goes away. He was so sad looking, worried looking and I could only watch as he withered away in front of me day by day in a montage. The building was eating its children, devouring their youth and forcing them to go day to day into their young graves.
I watched it happen to the one with a face. I watched the realization that he'd never be enough for the place tormenting children and I watched him step onto our study table. His feet were on the books, barely able to stand for all the time he'd spent in study, in preparation for something we were supposed to become, to uphold some how.
[A sigh and he draws his knees up, tucking blankets around them as he continues to speak. As he does, his eyes turn from the window and onto the wall in front of him, never to the mirror he knows he's speaking in to.]
A man I couldn't see stood in the background, a dark, dark scene change behind the boy standing on our books. He watched as I did, only my eyes were glued to the husk of a child barely touching his teens and the rope he put around his neck. He looked down at me and told me goodbye. Tears. They fell down his face and for what I couldn't tell, because he was scared? Because he was scared of failing? Because he was afraid of both and neither seemed more overwhelming than the other. He bid me goodbye and that he was sorry - how could a boy of that age be sorry? For what viable reason would a child feel sorrow of that divide while in a minds eye falling prey to his own decision -- or maybe one made for him.
I sat in my chair, glued to it, the figure looming in the background in a white light flooding the room and masking him. He saw it all and did nothing. Nor did the other figure who's shadow fell upon the feet I endured not to watch with no avail.
[After he's done talking, he looks legitimately distant, he is distant. The memory isn't as disturbing as it is strong, not like he'd tried to portray.]
I wonder now and hope that it isn't a memory. What sort of monster would demand that children give their youth? Surely none that justice wouldn't find a way to pull free from his grasp the little ones whom might have survived it. Or left. I distinctly remember taking a small object as I was deciding to leave the house who was sucking dry the life of children around me.
An odd dream.
[He looks over, taking up the mirror and the vacant look in his face is one he's always wearing by this point.]
But if you've listened this far, perhaps you'll know how to answer my question about nightmares with my thanks that you've helped me perhaps banish them into the cruel depths of human negativity.
[This video starts out in a dark, dark room and only the light of the night time does any decent for any sort of outline sitting at the window. It's clearly a man in a white shirt, the pants are too dark to make out any definitive colour past a shade of blue. He's made a small modification to be able to sit at the window and it's not clear what it is he's seated on, but his blankets are there and his pillows. He's drug his mattress and his table to the window.]
I had a nightmare for the fourth time since being here. Are they common? Wasn't it something I heard at one time that said talking about your nightmares would make them go away? Unfortunately there'll be graphic content, you should stray away if you have stomachs not suited to violence.
It made me sick, too.
[He means this in the double standard for those who know, for those who don't can assume what they will while they don't know he is sick in other ways. His finger comes to his lip and he nibbles at the skin on the side of it. It's a wonder he hasn't chewed clear through it for all the times he's done it.]
I tried so hard to wake up from it, a nightmare so real it could be life if not for the characteristic surreal settings that dreams tend to bring us. There was a tall cinder building in England, a gated fence surrounded it and its tower. All of us were children, nameless, faceless children in the crowds, given nothing more than what would be afforded an orphanage. Maybe that was what it was, in fact, an orphanage. What a strange dream to have.
That orphanage went on forever, large halls of oak and laminate as so the children's shoes dare not make a mark in the halls. Not make a mark at all in the life of the building. A young man I could only imagine the dream's reel to set as my friend sat down next to me in a large library lined with books -- so many books
[He's reaching down to the blankets, pulling them further around him and a pillow against the window to lean his head on.]
We were studying for something that felt more ominous than one single child should ever have to go through. The gaunt features on the face of the young man -- the only one with another face -- were a disturbing sight. Something I don't think I'll forget even if the nightmare goes away. He was so sad looking, worried looking and I could only watch as he withered away in front of me day by day in a montage. The building was eating its children, devouring their youth and forcing them to go day to day into their young graves.
I watched it happen to the one with a face. I watched the realization that he'd never be enough for the place tormenting children and I watched him step onto our study table. His feet were on the books, barely able to stand for all the time he'd spent in study, in preparation for something we were supposed to become, to uphold some how.
[A sigh and he draws his knees up, tucking blankets around them as he continues to speak. As he does, his eyes turn from the window and onto the wall in front of him, never to the mirror he knows he's speaking in to.]
A man I couldn't see stood in the background, a dark, dark scene change behind the boy standing on our books. He watched as I did, only my eyes were glued to the husk of a child barely touching his teens and the rope he put around his neck. He looked down at me and told me goodbye. Tears. They fell down his face and for what I couldn't tell, because he was scared? Because he was scared of failing? Because he was afraid of both and neither seemed more overwhelming than the other. He bid me goodbye and that he was sorry - how could a boy of that age be sorry? For what viable reason would a child feel sorrow of that divide while in a minds eye falling prey to his own decision -- or maybe one made for him.
I sat in my chair, glued to it, the figure looming in the background in a white light flooding the room and masking him. He saw it all and did nothing. Nor did the other figure who's shadow fell upon the feet I endured not to watch with no avail.
[After he's done talking, he looks legitimately distant, he is distant. The memory isn't as disturbing as it is strong, not like he'd tried to portray.]
I wonder now and hope that it isn't a memory. What sort of monster would demand that children give their youth? Surely none that justice wouldn't find a way to pull free from his grasp the little ones whom might have survived it. Or left. I distinctly remember taking a small object as I was deciding to leave the house who was sucking dry the life of children around me.
An odd dream.
[He looks over, taking up the mirror and the vacant look in his face is one he's always wearing by this point.]
But if you've listened this far, perhaps you'll know how to answer my question about nightmares with my thanks that you've helped me perhaps banish them into the cruel depths of human negativity.
[Action]
He lets his cheek rest on his kneecaps, staring at L.]
Then you're wrong. I benefitted greatly, it not only proved to me the idiocy of your staff, having to lead her through, but also substantiated a few things I'd thought about death. Don't be so full of yourself, not everything is all for you.
[Action]
He blinks slowly, the first time he's done so during this conversation.]
Killing something to learn from it... you substantiated something, though I wonder if you can understand it.
[Action]
[He lays out on the mattress, it's clear from the way he's turned his house upside down he's not feeling at home, he's not in his own skin here.]
[Action]
[He leans against the wall, slipping his hands into his pockets.]
[Action]
Yes.
But it seems just like the lady you sent, I have to feed you all the answers before you're well fed. I wouldn't lean on that wall, you never know what crazy traps I've set.
[None. He's just making fun of you L.]
I wonder, L, should I lead you along on a fun game? You like games right? I bet you're bored here with the little squabblings, kidnappings are nothing for you even I know that. Pitiful fights. in. the. stree~t?
[The t was given special attention, not for any particular reason, just to emphasize.
His body draws closer in on itself, cuddling in the position to which he's found himself comfortable.]
There's even another detective to help you. Much too brash, he'd shoot me before the game was up and you'd never find the answer. Maybe it'd be smart to include him in the game instead?
[Action]
Traps or not, one thing is certain, and it is that B is absolutely crazy.]
Whether I'm bored or not isn't your concern. But games don't always have a time or place. And to indulge them for the sake of games is nothing short of selfish.
Besides. You're right. There isn't just one other detective, though, there are many in this city, and it's therefore unlikely that the game would go on very long, anyway.
[Action]
[He rolls onto his back, splaying out, fiddling with his toes in the blankets. But it's L's next and final line that has Beyond stopping-- no. Freezing where he's laid and that smile to start up again.]
Is there?
That many that I wouldn't last? My my. That sounds like a challenge from you if I ever heard one. Still testing me? I accept. Just remember who asked for this.
[Action]
He crosses his arms, but the gesture is far from firm. Rather, it's wilted, tired.]
There is no challenge, there is no game. There is certainly no test. I regret that you want so badly to see it that way. Are you so hungry for attention that you seek it where you can, regardless of the cost?
[Action]
He draws in a large breath, letting it sigh out at the question, still in the position which bodes well for L in asking a question that may not be firm but had its consequences if he wasn't in such a good mood.]
Yes- and no, mostly no.
[A thumb moves to his lip worrying at the nail a little while his eyes stayed plastered on the way L stayed, how he placed himself around the room. Every bit of information is.]
But the cost of what? You hadn't even let me plan a single thing out.
[He's since let that thumb back down to the bedspread, pushing off of it and so he can tie the blanket around his neck like a long, overly large, warm cape.]
What's to say I want to play with you at all? If there's so many others out there to beat, why? Why did you come here?
[He's more interested in the other answer, why L's there now.]
What suddenly changed that you've so much interest in a failed experiment at being immortal?
[Action]
He hates rats to this day, the way they move especially, and he suppresses a shudder when Beyond shifts his position in a way that is hatefully reminiscent of that liquid slinking.
Not that B's expression is any more reassuring. Or his words, his non-answers and his returning questions.]
Beyond. You're right, I should likely leave now. This hasn't been a productive dialogue.