28th February | Early morning hours | Text

[realimperfect]

The problem with questions, memories, and interactions is that once they occur they are difficult to forget or take back. I am struck time and time again, as people appear and leave this place, how people are difficult and painful gateways to new experiences..

And yet as they possess the power to bring great beauty and opportunity to learn, they also bring with them the ability take their piece of truth and the spice of their life with them when they disappear from this city.

Truth and memories are horrifically inescapable. Don't you think?

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[thrusts]

If you linger in them.

[Video]

[erostripperella]

Memories are part of you, and they built you.

Though people leave, it doesn't mean they didn't exist. The memories we have with them are proof of that, and though it may be painful, it's all worth it as long you don't get consumed with them.

[madamabfly]

Memories. There was a time I had no sense of that. [She seems oddly nostalgic about it, though.]

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[realimperfect]

Sometimes it's hard to break out of lingering. You can go days without thinking of something but one ounce of nostalgia and it derails the entire process.

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[realimperfect]

Memories haven't built me, my doctor did.

Who's to say we don't loose memory of this place entirely when we leave, or are pulled away?

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[realimperfect]

Really? And how was that for you? Relieving?

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[nofarplaneyet]

You'd be completely correct.

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[realimperfect]

And what would you think if we could change or escape them entirely? Delete them and move on, so to speak?

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[nofarplaneyet]

Sometimes I wish I could. But then I'd be erasing a part of what defined me.

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[want_the_world]

Absolutely.

[In the last few days, Mello has learnt all over again, as if he needed reminding, just how inescapable both are. And yet, he wouldn't trade away the experiences he's had in Death City, even if he could.

His voice was dry at first, but he's more thoughtful when he goes on.]

But those things don't vanish or stop mattering if someone's sent home.

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[starfruitfrog]

...That may be, but no matter what, I'm happy that I was able to make memories with everyone here.

Even if we all go our separate ways at the end, I believe that some part of our hearts will never stop being connected.

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[realimperfect]

Are you so sure of that? It couldn't simply be something that could benefit you?

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[realimperfect]

Are you so sure about that? What if as soon as people arrive back in their home world they forget everything that ever happened here? Then what does it matter?

Here it may have an effect, a ripple, but if it doesn't there, is it really worth the trouble? Ripples have calls and answers, after all.

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[realimperfect]

I suppose, if you want to think the best of it.

I'm still unsure of how I wish to approach it.

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[starfruitfrog]

Thinking the worst of it won't help. Not only that, I'm sure my friends wouldn't want the only thing left of them to be people crying over them every day. Even if it is painful, there are so many good memories. Those will never disappear.

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[realimperfect]

Can you really be so sure that it never disappears?

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[starfruitfrog]

No.

But I believe that it doesn't.

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[kill_some_time]

I do not think so.

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[want_the_world]

It matters for the people who are still here.

[If Mello's sent home, he's dead, and wouldn't know anything anyway. He works from the assumption he'll stay here, because what else can he hope for?]

And you can't live worrying about that. That's like saying nothing you ever do counts, because we all die someday.

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[grab_my_bells]

Not just from this city. Anywhere, any time someone passes out of your life, they take a part of themselves with them, while leaving a part behind with you. It's a risk you take every time you allow yourself to know someone else.

The first time it can come as a shock--that one person can take and leave so much--but after a while you get used to it. Though you can never really anticipate what they will leave you with.

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[hoennmaihime]

I don't know about that. I think it's all kind of beautiful.

[Excuse her while she waxes lyrical about the subject.]

Even if I should never cross paths with someone again, I'll never not be glad that I met them. Even if things go badly, or sadly, there will always be something good to take away from our meeting. A friend, a memory, a goal, an answer, a question - it goes on and on. Just by meeting each other, we change.

I'll never stop wanting to meet new people and I'll never stop wanting to create new memories and I'll never stop wanting to experience new things. No matter what.

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[nolicenseyet]

Why would you want to forget?

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[realimperfect]

[ Woops, seems she suddenly finds it easier to articulate by speaking instead of typing, so she switches over. ]

But isn't that true, at the end of things? Ultimately you can ignore truths of the world for a little while, but in the end they simply come back and become apparent all over again, don't they? We live in a constant cycle of denial of the truth of things and the way the world works simply to make our lives seem more valid in the passage of time and space.

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[realimperfect]

Beliefs can only carry you so far.

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[realimperfect]

Enlighten me, then.