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[april 16th // video]

[it's a video post this time around, but the camera is focused on the interior of an empty apartment. for a moment the scene twitches, as if he'd intended to spin it around to face himself and then decided otherwise.]

...I believe Castiel was sent home. I do not know if there was anyone he would have wanted to know, or...

[he kind of feels like a terrible brother right now too, realizing how little he'd actually known about the man and that any chance to remedy that is now gone. and even without the visual of his face, it's pretty evident in his voice -- kaworu never bothers trying to hide his usual serene happiness, and it seems like he's just as unable to mask his sorrow.

there's an odd pause like he thinks he's supposed to say something else, but he eventually just gives up on that.]

...That is all. I am sorry.

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I'm coming up, okay?

I am not at my own apartment. [a bit redundant to point out, given he's got the camera now pointed at the floor of said empty apartment, not his, but he's sulking too much to care right now.]

Then please give me directions? I don't...

You shouldn't be alone right now.

[he's on the verge of just refusing, because it's all too tempting to just hole up somewhere alone with his thoughts. maybe the church again, where he'd gone after receiving kurapika's note.

he knows that's not going to make him feel any better though, and yako won't push him away if he decides he'd rather just hug than talk.]

...Not here. I do not want to stay here. [it's too empty.]

Would you like to come to my apartment, then?

{She doesn't like inviting people over considering Sai lives right across from her and the less of her precious people he knows about the better, but...

She can't leave Kaworu to the feelings and thoughts she doesn't doubt are clouding around him right now.}

Alright.

[to be fair, sai already knows about him. yako just doesn't know that he knows.]

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action; it's okay, i just sat down to watch him die again and laughed at the sound effects

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action; after crying a lot, of course, but the SPLAT sound is honestly kind of hilarious

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action; Yeah...poor baby

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action; Your last icon keyword made me cackle and want to make Takuto worry

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action; i was really bored the night i made all my icon keywords...

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action; and horrible. but mostly great.

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action; a-aww, Kaworu...

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[Okabe hasn't seen the guy in a few days, nor does he know who Castiel is, but he can't deny he's a bit concerned for Paledude. He's seen BREW send plenty home, and while he wants to gather information, the despair he sees itches at him.]

... You doing okay there?

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No.

[at least he's honest?]

Well... uh.

[He has no idea how to react. At all. It shows in the way his voice wavers. But damn if he doesn't know the pain of losing someone for what may be forever.]

Need anything? Food, errands, analysis? I mean, what are lab-mems for, right? Heh.

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No, thank you.

[but he does manage to at least turn the camera around to face himself, latching on to the first small distraction possible.]

What is a lab-mem?

A friend, I take it?

[Fabiola's been there more than a few times, and more than she'd ever have liked to have been.]

My condolences, Kaworu- it is never easy.

A brother. [you might know what he means by that. but either way, he didn't have any real experience with losing someone in this manner, and certainly not with being the one to discover it.]

Brother...?

[It takes her a moment, but then she nods her understanding and frowns a little.]

I am sorry- friends are difficult enough to lose here, never mind family.

It seems that everyone else here is accustomed to this sort of thing happening by now.

I cannot say that they are 'used' to it- at least, I cannot say that I am. It is more that it happens so frequently that they are not surprised anymore. That does not mean they do not mourn the loss, the same as anyone else.

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[Mello knew Castiel, a little. Not a terrible guy, for someone who beat him up when the city was going batshit.]

I didn't know you knew him.

You all right?

[Kaworu manifestly doesn't sound all right.]

I sought him out after you mentioned him to me. [how could he resist?] But no, I am not alright. Someone I care for was stolen away without warning, and without so much as a chance to say goodbye.

It's something you have to get used to here.

[He says it as bluntly as he says most things, but not without sympathy. There's little he could say that would help.]

At least he's probably all right in his world?

[for a moment he's about to argue that, but he stops himself, and the communicator catches only the sound of a slowly released breath as he forced himself to relax.]

...I can only hope.

I've lost people I cared about, too.

[If this weren't private, he wouldn't admit that.]

Sometimes they come back. Sometimes not. You can't--

It's easy to conclude that not giving a shit is easier. But that would mean acting like this doesn't count, and I have to think it does.

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Ваш друг?

[later enough that he sounds somewhat better, after being treated to yako's hug therapy.]

Да, ближе всего мне пришлось семья.

Мне очень жаль. Это больно потерять единственный человек, вы можете позвонить вашей семьи.

[Spoken like someone who has gone through it before...]

[he seems to pick up on that somewhat, because his tone when he responds is somehow gentler.]

Это больно терять никому в этой манере. Это слишком внезапно.

Из личного опыта...я не уверен, что имея возможность попрощаться делает больно меньше.

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