[00110100 / text / May 2, afternoon / so many private texts]

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[filtered to ancestorhive trolls + Aranea]

have a partner now
he used to be aii iin paiir of sunglasses
thiink iis very appropriiate choiice


[Same filter + AR]

saw empress

dont worry
am all riight

but am goiing to stay at own hiivestem for liittle whiile

=be careful=


[And now just AR]

iif =she= fiinds out youre partner you could be iin danger
am so sorry


[Sollux, your not-dad needs a word with you]

what the hell were you thiinkiing meetiing wiith =her=??

Comments

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[sermonize]

Like anger?

My friend, it's perfectly understandable and arguably justified, considering the misfortune that feel upon you at her hand.

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yes
was very angry
but more


am stiill afraiid of her
was tryiing to prove wasnt
just made everythiing worse

private

[sermonize]

Fear is not a weakness, Psii. It never has been. Fear is a natural emotion and a healthy one, if kept in check. What cannot happen is allowing it to control your actions and dictate what you do.

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thats where have problem
dont know how to keep self from doiing somethiing stupiid when am too caught up in =feeliing= to even see iits stupiid!!

private

[sermonize]

Count to ten?

Or would twenty-two work better?

[ teasing to lighten the mooooood. ]

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could count iin biinary
am much slower at iit now

wiill be all riight
dont worry ss
fiirst tiime seeiing =her= was bound to be worst

private

[sermonize]

Perhaps we will be fortunate and she will disappear.

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hope so

but know better than to assume somethiing want so much wiill happen

private

[sermonize]

It is the only little nugget of hope, false or otherwise, that I am going to cling to.

[ for the sake of that anger still bubbling in him. ]

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ss
are =you= 0k??

private

[sermonize]

Why do you ask?

private

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know thiis iisnt easy for you eiither
also know you worry more about everyone else than yourself

private

[sermonize]

Are you not doing the very same right now?

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wiill be wiith partner iif go

so let
me do iinstead of you for biit
know thiis iisnt only about self
dont liike everyone beiing so worriied

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[sermonize]

We'd worry even if you were in the safest place imaginable.

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know that
but am fiine

=wiill= be fiine

ss
you deflected questiion

private

[sermonize]

Did I? I can't seem to remember...

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you diid

know you must be angry

thats not weakness eiither

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It... It isn't a very healthy anger, I fear.

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iis one of only sane reactiions to =her=

iis 0k kankrii

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I still do not like how it affects me so.

[text | private

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have been feeliing that way for days

but know can talk to you
and am here for you iif you need

[text | private]

[sermonize]

I know you are... Yet I still can't help but feel ashamed at the same time.

[text | private]

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you would tell self
anger at someone whos hurt you and loved ones so much iis nothiiing to be ashamed of

doesnt become less true iif youre one heariing iit

[text | private]

[sermonize]

You need to learn not to listen to me so well.