January 29th, 3 AM, Perma-Video.

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*Camera comes on well before anything is set-up for it, even in the darkened room you can tell someone is fumbling the camera into place. When Clare actually turns the lamp on so you can see... she does not look well. Not sick, just... whatever's going on she's freaked out in a way she hasn't been in Death City. And she has definitely been crying recently.*

I- I was home. I was home for five months! But- it hasn't been.

Was it a dream? But it couldn't be cause I'm physically older, so it had to be real. But I didn't have my scar there and I have it now, and- Where was I yesterday? Why did it all feel so real?

Maybe it finally happened, everything here has finally gotten to me.

Could someone please tell me what happened. Why does this place keep making things worse... *And in a much smaller voice, just before she cuts off the video* But it isn't like I want to go home...

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It isn't? [He wasn't certain what else was worse than that, but Yuuri fell silent again while he waited for Clare to speak up. Judging by her reaction, it was something pretty severe with all things considered!

His eyes widened when she said that she'd started dating someone, but he listened intently until she surprised him further by saying that her boyfriend's dad married her mum... EEEEEeeeeeh?! This time his eyes did widen in surprise at her admittance, and it was impossible to remain silent as he voiced his surprise.] Your mum?!

Then what happened was--- Then that would mean--- [Realisation dawned on him at the very confusing, and shocking information, and he found himself at a loss of words before he simply said something else.] I'm really sorry to hear that, Clare.

[What could anyone do in that type of situation? His parents were still married, so he didn't have to worry about that, and he wasn't interested in finding anyone else to be a parent to Greta besides himself and Wolfram... not to mention that she was happy that Greta was way too young to date! And that there was no chance throughout all of Shin Makoku that she would ever start dating anyone from Wolfram's family. That was just the weirdest thought, and he rushed to push that thought from his mind. Nope, definitely never going there.]

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*Clare hesitated from Yuuri's outburst, his calmer words didn't change Clare's worry about her next words. Because the more she thought about what they did, the more she realized she was an idiot to try it. Yes, her reasoning was justified but... it really wasn't a the greatest idea.*

We... stopped dating when our parents told us they were getting married, but our feelings- *She hoped Yuuri wouldn't freak out again, that would make this conversation go poorly* We both liked each other still, and he wanted me back, but I thought I was finally over him. Then I realized I wasn't, and I wanted him back, and we made another try at dating under our parents noses, but...

I hate him, I hate him so much! *Clare's sudden volume change wasn't warned by anything in her body language. Clare didn't realize she'd go there with this, the words just came out.* He broke up with me, because if we went any further the break-up would be worse. And he was right, and I hate him for being right.

*She also hated him because she still loved him, still wanted to be with him. It was wrong, it was stupid, it was foolish, but she wanted it. But that could stay a secret for now, it hurt enough without admitting that.*

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[He tried not to let whatever she told him freak him out, even if this all seemed like something out of one of his Mum's tv programs. It all seemed so fantastic, but he was definitely one of the last people to ever talk about strange things happening.

Yuuri's expression softened at his confession, and he tried to put his thoughts into words as he spoke.]

It's hard now, but I think that you'll be able to understand and come to accept it in time. We never think rationally when the emotion is still fresh and raw, and you're not wrong for feeling the way you do just as he's not wrong for doing what he did to protect you.

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I guess... it just- everything fell apart at once. And with my memories here it's all... jumbled. *She wished she could explain it better, but the words weren't there. Not in any way she liked anyway.*

He's the most important person to me, and a complete stranger, and a long lost annoyance, and my brother... all at once and every item should be mutually exclusive. And if we look at it from here, I hadn't even thought about him in years... now suddenly he's everything.

*Yuuri, Clare is sorry but she needs another hug. It's a totally platonic hug showing her desperate need for anything to replace her current feelings.* And I'm in a city at war with monsters, I wish I could just shove all these emotions away... I don't want them. *She does.* I'd be better off without them. *Debatable.*

Why can't life be simpler?