04. Quartus | Video | 7th September

[5thchild]

[ hello death city! It has been a while, hasn't it? He should post more to the network, he often gets such interesting answers. Kaworu is smiling, as usual, currently at a music store (thank you, Shinji), sitting in front of a piano ]

I have been wondering, what do you live for? What keeps you going and gives you reason to live?

[ yes, deep meaningful questions, Kaworu loves them.

Finally, the angel presses a piano key ] I do have another question, what kind of music do you enjoy? I'm very fond of classical, but I'd like to learn more.

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[jutsu]

Y-you-
[ it hits him like a suckerpunch, and in the end- it's impossible not to think about neji, and itachi. ]

Then you definitely have to stick around now!

[5thchild]

It's more complicated than that. I do have to return.

[jutsu]

What the hel- why?

[5thchild]

My world is meant to go through an endless time-loop, a cycleof rebirth and death: when the world comes to its end, it will restart again.

I am meant to be there, in order for that to take place and in order to fulfill my role.

[ which mayit totally does involve dying each time-loop ]

[jutsu]

But that- [ please hold, your naruto is loading ]

You mean you have to keep...

[5thchild]

Dying, yes. I'm meant to die for Shinji, by Shinji or because of Shinji.

[jutsu]

How the hell is that fair?!

[5thchild]

[ there is a soft smile ]

it's not about being fair. It's the way things are.

[jutsu]

Then things are shit and need t'get changed!

[5thchild]

Why?

[jutsu]

It's easy for you to say it, and decide to die for somebody else-
But what about all of us who get left behind? [ his fingers are curled around the communicator so hard that his knuckles are turning white. naruto can't think around the tightening in his chest. ]

You'll be gone, and the person that's important to you is gonna have to keep going without you!

[5thchild]

And he is quite able to do so. Even without me, there is still much left for him; things to learn, to see, to understand, to reach for, to accept.

It doesn't matter if I'm there or not. My loved has reached him, I was able to soothe his path, and I was able to give him more. That is all it matters.

[jutsu]

Saying it like that... [ naruto's gaze cuts to the side. he's inherited all kinds of legacies- his dad's, his teacher's, neji's will and who knows how many others. maybe they were happy to do it. but deep in his heart, he still feels that he would trade anything to have them back. ]

It isn't so easy to accept it. When someone you love is gone.

[5thchild]

It's not, but it's something that will happen all through your life. Sometimes you can stop it, sometimes you can't.

And I cannot live, it's not something anyone can stop. I'm meant to die, always.