malandragem: (This is no place to put your heart)
Fabiola Iglesias ([personal profile] malandragem) wrote in [community profile] soul_campaign2012-08-07 03:43 am

Decimotercera ⚜ Roda [March 13th, afternoon; video]

[Today finds Fabiola perched somewhere high, and taking a well-deserved day off from her usual activities. She raises the hand holding a thermos- coffee, because she considers herself too mature a girl for something like hot chocolate- to the camera, and then takes a sip of her coffee, preparing herself to speak. She's not as long-winded as usual today, though perhaps it's for the best, considering what she wants to ask.]

I know a lot of people have left lately, and I know some of those here are better at handling it than others. So in the interest of helping those that do not take it as well as others...

[She shifts idly, peering over her hands at the ground below and scooting backward just a little.]

How do you make yourselves feel better, Death City? What do you do in order to keep pushing forward?
diedforyoursins: (✞why are you even looking at this)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 09:23 am (UTC)(link)
I did promise. [well, he said maybe. but she was polite enough that he figured she deserved it.

it's an awkward thing to say though, especially given all the apparent disparity in the meanings of the word in different worlds. and the fact that the only other person he'd told so far had immediately brought up that he killed angels in his home world. awkward.

he's quiet for a moment more, hands folded in his lap considerately, before he continued cautiously.]


It is not quite the same as what you likely imagine, given our past conversation, but in my world I am called an Angel.
diedforyoursins: (✞guardian angel etc.)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[well. um.]

The sort that was meant to end humanity as we know it in my world.
diedforyoursins: (♪mysterious transfer student)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
That is one way to look at it in a positive light. [he smiles slightly, a bit of tension easing from his shoulders.] Were plagues a problem in your world, then?
diedforyoursins: (♫oh right. rei. fuck.)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
The first Angel-related incident in my world instantly wiped out about a third of the human population, and many more were killed in the aftermath due to war, flooding, and starvation.

[he sincerely hopes your idea of "less unpleasant" here is very off, otherwise that is a really bad sign.]
diedforyoursins: (♫seele is a collective bag of dicks)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[he sort of glances away at that, and immediately he's stuck by what a very human reaction to guilt that was. it doesn't quite make him meet her eyes though.]

Success would have meant the end of the rest of humanity, so I suppose we did. Luckily for the world, none of us succeeded.
diedforyoursins: (♫angel statues)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-09 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[wow how does he even put this]

...My siblings took a variety of forms in their attempts, most of them huge and monstrous. I was always the strange one, however, so I thought it better to take a human form and trick my way in. I came closer than any of the others, too. I always thought it a shame when the human race had created so much and could still continue to do so, but I was always intent on completing my mission regardless.

[he's quiet for a long few moments after that. how do you explain how one person could change your mind about everything, make you give up everything? human beings had the ability to feel so much, and with all the talent of all their greatest wordsmiths, he did not think there was an adequate way to describe what he had felt.]

...I did always find humans interesting, but I was only able to freely interact with them in the days before my own attempt. And I met a boy, one of the children charged with defending mankind from the Angels, and he was...wonderfully imperfect.
diedforyoursins: (✞whoops gay)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-11 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[oh yeah, if he'd wanted to there would have been no stopping him. lucky for humanity, right?]

I loved him. He was beautifully broken and faceted as only humans can be, desperate for affection yet afraid of people. I could not bring myself to destroy all of humanity's depth and potential, or this boy who deserved the future more than anyone. So I asked him to kill me.
diedforyoursins: (✞guardian angel etc.)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-12 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It was a cruel request, but...I am not incapable of selfishness. The only true freedom I ever had was in choosing how I would die. I wanted it to be by his hand.

[or, y'know. by his giant fucking robot's hand.]
diedforyoursins: (♬even more angel statues)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-12 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
No, surprisingly. I am sure it was much harder on him -- he hesitated for a long while before finally going through with it.

[a full minute and nine seconds. setting records longest static frames and all that shit.]
diedforyoursins: (✞totally listening to ke$ha)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-13 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
[symbol of a fucked budget.]

I do enjoy life, and I am grateful that this place has given me a second chance at it. But I do not regret it. He was able to live, and so my life had meaning.
diedforyoursins: (✞what are you making him touch oh my god)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-13 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
[his looks back to her for a moment, eyebrows sliding up in something like surprise, and then eventually grins slightly, returning his gaze to the landscape.]

That is a very nice thing for you to say. You are very kind yourself.
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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-13 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
Perhaps. He lived, but I can only hope that he will be able to move past it. He is...gentle. It is enough that he was asked to fight, and I made him kill. Toward the end, he had already lost everyone that might have shown him sympathy -- and that may be why he accepted me so easily -- and yet I asked him to kill me as well. It is crueler than you know.
diedforyoursins: (♬ok maybe a little)

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[personal profile] diedforyoursins 2012-08-13 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
I can only hope... [and he shakes his head, smiling ruefully.] I am sorry. It is kind of you to say these things, when you have no reason to comfort me. I think it would have been best if he had had someone like you instead of myself.

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