soul_campaign | 004 | text | May 2nd, afternoon

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004 | text | May 2nd, afternoon

[to Psii] Hey, are you doing okay? Just wanted to check up. One of the newbies seemed to get under your skin a little.

[ That's an understatement, by the way. Audrey's good at understatements. ]

[to Mello and Dwight] There are things going on, and there aren't many people here I trust. Where are you guys?

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[ Oh Psii. ]

You seemed a lot more than "just rattled."

You can tell me. I may not look like much, but I've got your back.

why??

[ She doesn't like to put it this way - That's what I do - because sometimes it sounds like she doesn't care, like she helps out of some sense of obligation. She doesn't want Psii thinking that. ]

Back home, I knew people who needed help. Lots of people. I helped them. I help anyone who needs it.

You seem like you need it.

[Long pause before reply, as Psii's processing this and finding right words.

As much as he loves family, knows will always try to hide worst from them. But is also inescapably aware, now, that emotions are getting harder to control. If this is what Audrey does, can it hurt to let her try?]

would liike to deny that
but
dont thiink you would beliieve

one thiing diidnt tell you before iis
was =her= shiip

[ Audrey sighs on the other end, contemplating for a moment switching to voice or video, which she would be more comfortable with - but this isn't about her being comfortable. Psii should be comfortable. And she has the feeling that he's most comfortable behind text. ]

Nope. I have a weird sixth sense about things sometimes.

[ It feels weird to admit that, though she's known it to be true for a long time now. ]

I thought so. She seemed [ a pause ] dictatorish.

How are you feeling about her being here?

wiish =she= werent
obviiously

went to see =her=
diidnt feel liike had choiice
wanted to prove wasnt afraiid

but was

stiill am

Why? What can she do to you here? Her powers don't work here.

=she= doesnt need powers to hurt those care about
and saiid =she= would iif

iif diidnt learn =place= agaiin

[ Her hands are shaking now, she's so angry. It explains why she's typoing here and there but couldn't care less. ]

Your place isn't under her, Psii. Your place isnt underneath anyone.

And she isnt going to hurt ANYONE here. I won't let that happen, an I know you won't either.

You dont have to be afraid of her anymore.

know that
but thank you for sayiing

am =goiing= to be afraiid
hundreds of sweeps dont vaniish iin days
but am =not= goiing to let fear control

[ She has to admit, he's right. She doesn't have to like it though. ]

Just remember that you've got a lot of people who have your back, Psii. She can't be all powerful, and she can't be strong enough to beat us all. Keep your head up.

youve helped lots of people??

do you know

iif someone had trouble wiith unproductiive emotiions
and wanted to stop them
what would you tell them??

[ Uh. Is this turning into... That Talk?

Put a pause on the hyperventilating, Parker. You've only been a mom for just over a week, but you can handle this. ]

Are we talking about feelings of infatuation?

[ Please say no, please say no. As much as she likes you, Psii, she's not sure how the Birds and the Bees would function for your, ah. Species. ]

what
no!!

iif someone
iif self

cant stop beiing angry and afraiid
feels =terriible=
know arent useful emotiions
wiish could stop feeliing them but dont know how

[ SO MUCH RELIEF. ]

Oh! That's different.
Obviously.

[ Thankfully. ]

I do have some experience helping others face their demons, if that's what you want to call them.

It sounds like you have a few.

was fiine before
just want to be 0k agaiin

You will be, Psii. Humans have a saying: Rome wasn't built in a day. It basically means that everything worthwhile takes time. This will too.

You just have to focus on yourself and your life. You need to know that you have friends here who will be at your side no matter what.

so
cant go back

iisnt =faiir=
had perfectly sustaiinable equiiliibriium before =she= showed up

Psii
Emotions are a huge strength.
They can be vital for success.

You shouldn't discount them so easily.

dont liike them ap
was fiine wiithout them
theyre iinput cant control
dont remember how to deal wiith

Keep calm, Psii.
Think of something that makes you happy.
What makes you happy, Psii?

beiing wiith ss and dii
and hl
dont feel so gliitchy then

thiink none of them have ever seen self as buggy

I'm not very good with computers.

What do you mean by buggy?

the way am now
where cant even say
''the way ii am''
wiithout feeliing weiird

wasnt always liike thiis
ss and dii knew before
but they dont treat any diifferently now

That's good though that they don't treat you any differently.

I think it will just take time.
That's not a bad thing.
Allow yourself that time.

I bet SS and Dii would agree.

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