002 || video || 10th May

[closedherheart]

[Anri's been laying low since her last unintentional broadcast but there's only so long she can avoid having to integrate with what is her new everyday life. And since one of the two people she knows can no longer be found, she figures it won't hurt to have more people to turn to.

Rely on. But she knows what she has to sacrifice to ensure people don't figure that out.

Though this feed is intentional, it's clear from the way she can't quite face the camera that she's still not entirely comfortable in speaking out at all. But given the turmoil the city's in right now, there's only so much she can do alone - even if stray thought has given her a clue that there's a side of her not quite as departed as she first thought]

Ah...I'm sorry to trouble everyone at such a time. I know you all have a lot to focus on but Okabe-san doesn't seem to be around right now and there are some things I need to ask.

First of all...money. I've been doing okay so far but what I get from Shibusen isn't enough when so many places won't take it. And I'm not sure they'd be any more willing to take me on either. Not that I'm sure what I could do, exactly, but if anyone has any ideas, I'll listen.

Secondly, I think I found what I can do...I think I found why I'm a Weapon. But...it's complicated. I understand, but I'm also worried about what it means...if there's anyone I could talk to about this, I'd be grateful. If there's something you want of me to make up for taking your time, I'll find a way.

[Even if it means having to fight. If it's enough to appease her worries about what she's become, it'll be worth it.]

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[recitings]

[He takes a moment to ponder that.]

Well, I can believe that. Practically every Weapon here have minds of their own. But I guess... if you weren't expecting it to have one... well, I think it could happen.

[closedherheart]

But it's different when the Weapons here were people to begin with, isn't it?

[That's a different thing, slightly, to what she's thinking. But she knows she has to explain more if he's to understand that]

I think...I think my Weapon form is the same katana that became part of me in my world. If that's true, I need to know I can control her even when I'm being her.

[recitings]

I see... have you remained long in your weapon form yet? Do her thoughts still remain when you take that form?

[closedherheart]

[She shakes her head, staring down at her hands]

I don't know...part of me thinks I should probably find out when I'm by myself, when there's no-one else around I could hurt. But...

[She's scared. If Saika were able to take the shift into her form as implicit handing over of control, she's not sure what would happen to her]

[recitings]

Would you like someone to watch over you when you transform? What do you think might happen if that weapon's thoughts are still with you?

[closedherheart]

[She hesitates, trying to determine how best to explain]

She wants to love humanity. The only way she can do that is by cutting them, and by leaving a little of herself in whoever she cuts. If she's not kept in line, she would seek to spread her love as far as she could, using her children to further her own aim.

[And if she was lucky, she'd at least be able to commune with Saika's "children" to keep them in check when she wasn't in weapon form. If not...]

[recitings]

Children...? Is that what she leaves when she cuts?

[Genesis gives this some thought.]

Perhaps it would be best if you could try transforming under the supervision of an experienced pair. A strong meister could help, too. I'd volunteer mine since I'm a bit of a difficult weapon as well.

[He chuckles.]

But I think your form can be a definite challenge.

[closedherheart]

Of a kind.

[Though Saika's children had to find their own blades, her influence still took over them.]

I wouldn't want anyone to get hurt...but I'd feel better knowing someone could stop me...stop her if something went wrong.

[And she feels awful for imposing. But isn't that better than taking the risk?]

[recitings]

Well then, I'll talk to my Meister. I think we can keep you under control.

How do you feel about a training session early in the morning?

[closedherheart]

All right, thank you. Whenever you have time is fine.

[That's the very least she can do if he and his Meister are willing to help]

(ooc: Sounds like a plan to me!)

[recitings]

Very well, then. I'll let you know when we are. But we'll certainly see each other again soon. Until then, you can feel free to speak to me when you have any concerns about your weapon form.

(ooc: I'll chat up Auste and see when we can do a log :3c Are you on Plurk?)

[closedherheart]

Thank you. I appreciate that.

[She moves to stand, then, bowing in gratitude]

I won't take up any more of your time for now.

(ooc: I am indeed! amazinglystrange)

[recitings]

Alright. Until we meet again, Miss Sonohara.

(ooc: adding you! I'm decadentarisu)

[recitings]

[ooc: Would you like to schedule a log with Genesis, Edgeworth, and Anri after the rescue day? :3c]