text; 016- FEB 01/'10 - afternoon

[silicomb]

there is n0thing t0 be w0rried ab0ut.
everything will be
0k


it is.

[private; L]
i have a questi0n.
i think y0u will 0ffer a better answer than m0st.

Comments

[soulparadox]

No.

I simply am grateful for it.

[silicomb]

g00d.
i'm happy t0 hear

[soulparadox]

Thank you for these words.

[silicomb]

yeah anytime

d0 y0u always s0und like this

[soulparadox]

Sound like what?

[silicomb]

sad
n0t quite
but really cl0se t0 it

[soulparadox]

Yes.

I do not know how to sound any other way but this.

[silicomb]

have y0u tried 0ther v0ices
thinking different things
n0t that i'm really 0ne t0 judge

i have never heard y0u happy, even in the human sense 0f the term

[soulparadox]

I am happy sometimes. I am happy now.

I just do not know how to properly express it when you are not close to me. I would hug you, for instance.

[silicomb]

really?
then i guess it's 0k.
it's just kind 0f
weird i guess.
t0 think s0me0ne d0esn't kn0w h0w t0 be that.
i als0 guess it's g00d t0 kn0w y0u can at least feel it.

[soulparadox]

Yes. I can recognize it. I just do not know how to express it.

How do you express your happiness?

[silicomb]

[ that... is a really good question. ]

i d0n't kn0w, really.
i wasn't really happy f0r a l0ng time.

[soulparadox]

Why?

Are you still missing Kamui like me?

[silicomb]

[ that kind of makes him laugh. ]

i guess s0.
he meant a l0t didn't he.

[soulparadox]

He did.

[silicomb]

i'm s0rry he left.
0r had t0 leave.
but we all will eventually

[soulparadox]

Be okay?

[silicomb]

yes.
it will all be 0k

[ they're all doomed, anyway. ]

[soulparadox]

I believe you.

[silicomb]

thank y0u
that means a l0t

[soulparadox]

Do people not normally believe you?

[silicomb]

why sh0uld they?
why w0uld they want t0?
n0 0ne wants t0 hear that kind 0f shit
hell, i w0uldn't

[soulparadox]

Odd.

[silicomb]

the wh0le deal with m0rtality is that n0 0ne wants reminders
n0t that i blame them

[soulparadox]

But it is something that everyone should not shy away from.